The day before he had been learning to focus on the here and now whilst working in the garden. “Let each task be all there is, ” instructed his Zen master.
Today, as he sat in zazen, his shoulder was giving him great pain from the exertion of the day before. There was no sympathy. Zazen had began as usual this morning.
As he struggled to focus on his inhalations and exhalations, his mind became more and more absorbed with the pain. Anger about his predicament came and went in intervals. Then all that was left was the pain. He had disappeared. The Zen master had disappeared. Then it occurred to him…
His pain had supported him in a great mental struggle at first, then because the ego- mind received no relief, no comfort, he was totally at one. Pain and self disappeared. All that was left was focus in its purest form. Then the zazen was over, and his predicament returned. He resolved not to try and escape from his experience from that point on, but he knew he would. It wasn’t that easy, his practice was about the journey, not the desitination, and pain would be back and so would his resistance to it.
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