The Tyrant
There are times when I need to recognize that I live with the relentless tyrant of the conditioned mind. To claim that I have master of this tyrant is just what the ego ordered! To accept, acknowledge and allow this tyrant to be fully in my awareness, is to transcend it, which does not mean to control or destroy it, for that would just be another of the ego’s ploys to gain satisfaction from such an accomplishment. In fact, in Zen, all accomplishment is transient and illusory, so I aspire to accomplish nothing and go nowhere.
If I look closely in zazen, holding my focus strongly in the hara, I can watch the tyrant at work, accepting it and integrating it back into the wholeness of my being. I need to give up trying to get anywhere with such conditioning, for if I try to change the circumstances, I will surely get more and more stuck.
The Will of a Tyrant
by Derek Ayre.
Within each soul there is a power
Of human potential
An unopened flower
So infrequently is it used
Are we machines?
Being abused?
By poor self-opinion and oppression,
By propaganda and unwanted lesson?
Who is to blame for this counter-production?
Everyone?
No-one?
A contradiction.
Take courage
Face a fact.
Things are as they were chosen to be
Long ago
In our infancy
Over ages
Many an aphorism
Infringed the mind
With steel-like precision
The will of a tyrant
Who needed control
Of our lives
Our hearts
Even our souls?
But a collective created the world as it is
And wait…
If all are to blame
Each one is all
All is each one
It’s the same
Self or other? Transcend blame.
© Derek Ayre 2001





